*mmmmonster kill [kill..kill]*
[If you know how to pronounce the above statement, then this post is for you.]
I've been playing this mmog since I-can't-remember-when. Really stupid during my first ever game. Picked Vengeful Spirit [since siya yung pinaka-unang hero sa tavern at hindi ko alam na pwedeng pumili ng iba], cursed the character [dahil akala ko walang kwenta yung skills and 'ultimate' niya], and bought every RECIPE for an item I could afford. Anyway, after that 'tragic' event, I played a hundred more games and eventually got the hang of it. I'm no pro, but I was too into the game emotionally [yes, emotionally] that I knew I had to loosen up a bit.
Today, I got to play DotA again, this time without having to worry about whom I gonna play with [made possible by GG Client]. Hay.. my esteem shot down again. I really feel bad when people throw insults at my face for a 'bad' game. Ang malupit pa don, di ko na nga kilala yung mga kalaro ko, naapektuhan pa ako. I mean, I've been playing for more than a year now and I'm really trying my best to play hardcore but everytime I face real people in battle, I just get all panicky and end up not knowing what to do. Like how this guy I played with kanina seemed so kind at the start, but when things started to turn bad for our team, ayun.. nagwala. He started calling us 'weak' and *toot* and *toot*. Naiiyak na nga ako.. I wanted to say sorry pero I figured that that would make me appear 'noob' [newbie] to him so I just kept silent the whole time. It's a good thing I was using my kuya's account.. at least he won't be able to use my being a 'she' against my gameplay.
Ok.. I should not be telling you this. This is bad for my image! haha. Well, i don't really care.. ganon talaga e, it just takes a little getting used to it. My gameplay is not to be blamed, I think I play okay naman eh [I THINK ha..]. It's what people say that actually affects my game. I mean, okay lang na sabihin mo sa akin na mali yung ginawa ko, pero kailangan bang samahan ng mura at kung anu-ano pang degrading words?? c'mon. There's nothing wrong with being aggressive, pero wag naman OA. Behind those seemingly 'invulnerable' heroes are real people na nasasaktan din. At kahit ano pang equipment niyan, naka-aegis of the immortal o vanguard pa yan, tagos hanggang kalooban pa rin ang sakit ng mga salitang iyong bibitawan.
Uyy. Ayos yon ah.. pangteleserye.
Tama na nga. Someday, I'd learn to play games the way those guys do.. ruthless and with no mercy. Or maybe not. Either way, I won't quit.
Gotta go, I have a godlike-winning streak to do. >:p
Labels: Random Rants
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Name:Katrina
